Tired but trying

Our son learned to read before he was three years old. He joined an online playgroup for a year while I used a reading program that emphasized phonetics/phonemes.

Though we don’t religiously memorize Bible verses, our reading practice is more on Bible stories and children’s books that promote good values.

I play Bible songs and Bible stories on Spotify almost everyday.

As I write this, (I’m not proud of this) I have a pending, long overdue report for the last quarter of his assessment. After a milestone presentation around the 20th week of our curriculum, our academic learning times went downhill due to successive sicknesses.

Mentally, something in me sort of broke and I got at a crossroads (still on one) considering whether it’s really worth it to continue on the path we have chosen.

If I may share, here are some of the topics our little one has learned in about 24+ weeks of Kindergarten (on top of Bible stories and principles):

Timeline Age of Ancient Empires to Modern Times
Skip counting 2s til 15s
Associative Law of Addition
Associative Law of Multiplication
Geometry, Fractions
Geography (we’re ‘behind’ with maps)
English Prepositions
Latin Declensions
Elements of shape, abstract art, Renaissance artists
Mozart, Handel, Bach, the Orchestra
Classification of living things
Science experiments

This is not a complete, exhaustive list but I.am.exhausted trying to go through them in my mind.

I couldn’t bring myself to the required mental and emotional state I used to have to consistently prepare for ‘school’.

Discipline isn’t pleasant, it’s inconvenient, uncomfortable.

I am reminded: a good education matters when Christ is at the center. Unless we discipline ourselves and pursue excellence for the goal of glorifying God, all hardwork is only vanity. Or maybe I’m lazy.

I’m still in the process of finding the intersection of discipline and love for learning. I have to find that rhythm where learning remains to be fun, not a chore. I like long-distance runs over sprints, personal bests over trophies, chill over hustle.

As I write this, our little learner is currently on medication for what the doc suspects is either mpox or hand, foot and mouth disease.

We’re taking it easy.

Homeschooling isn’t only school at home.

What’s in a name?

Yesterday, my son spotted an elderly photographer in the park and asked for a photo. We’ll call him Lolo. 

Lolo wore a warm smile, black-rimmed eyeglasses, a denim vest, a fisherman’s hat, and two digital SLR cameras around his neck. Lolo charged 50 pesos—less than a dollar—per photo. After we paid, he asked us to wait in the park while he printed our pictures.

My husband hesitated, skeptical if Lolo would return. But I said, “Batangas ‘to,” reassuring myself of the trust we’ve found in Batangas City, our home for over five years now. It’s not blind trust, but a belief in the good woven into the community, rooted in God’s guidance. I wanted to support Lolo’s work—he wasn’t begging; he was offering a service.

While waiting, my son raced around the park, turned a concrete slope into a slide and played with other kids. I met three moms, exchanged short stories of family and faith—connections I’d have missed if we’d rushed home after our hospital visit.

Batangas a-reh!

The sun dipped low, and the church bells of the Minor Basilica of the Immaculate Conception rang for the Angelus (6:00 PM). Doubt crept in. Was my husband right? I prayed silently, trusting God, that Lolo would return.

One mom reassured me that Lolo’s a local; he also took their pictures a while back. My son, sweaty and thirsty, sat beside me. My husband nodded toward the car. I repeated, “Batangas ‘to,” holding onto faith.

After a few more minutes, Lolo returned, handing us our photos in brown envelopes. My son blurted, “Where were you, Mr. Photographer?” Lolo chuckled. I saw how he took pride in his work and asked his name—Emil, he said, hesitantly. “Thank you, Sir Emil,” I said, texting him gratitude. His face lit up. Using his name made him feel seen, just as God sees us.

Batangas may not be perfect, but it’s relatively safe*, with trust running deep like roots in good soil. We can talk to strangers in the park—not fearfully, but wisely, with God’s discernment. 

As we train our kids, let’s take notice of people’s kindness, honor the elderly, and see the good in people. Let’s also remind our kids to always check with us before conversing with strangers. Using someone’s name—like Lolo Emil’s—builds bridges. It shows they matter. Try it: say a cashier’s or server’s name, share a smile, and trust our Heavenly Father’s care. 

Batangas ‘to—or as the locals would say, “Batangas a-reh!


*Looking for stats and facts? For the latest data or report on crime rates in the Philippines, you may check here or here.